My search for healing and spirituality took flight in motherhood after my son's birth in 2002. Well, things never turn out how you’d imagine them to go, and he landed back in the hospital for a six-week NICU stay with a pile of medical ambiguity. And after the trauma was neatly tucked away somewhere in my body for many years, I learned and continue to learn how to manage the peaks and valleys of anxiety that motherhood brings. I fought for my own identity alongside motherhood